| sometimes when you feel that Facebook isn't so fun anymore, that MySpace is getting very spammy and doing homework is just really stupid... you go on Xanga. after so many ..well, years, of not writing on here, i've suddenly decided to come back, today!
life hasn't really changed, but then again, the only changes it makes is when you risk something and just go for it. i am just rambling, so pardon me for just a minute, please. english assessment is just a little frustrating right now, and clearing my head with some "small talk" is really helping, actually.
sometimes i look back on all the pictures i've posted, and blogs i've written, or comments i've given... they all seem so strange to me now. i can't even begin to remember what i was thinking when i wrote some of the "eprops" and "comments" on xanga! it seemed like it was centuries ago, and from a completely different person. my perspectives of the world now is so very much different from, what.. two years ago? i can really see the change in the way i wrote, the thoughts i gave and the expressions i used.. and i think to myself "did i really write this?" or "what the hell was i thinking?" and ESPECIALLY "jesus this girl needs some english classes!"
if there is one thing i cannot wait to do, it is to graduate. i will be turning the big sixteen in about a month or so, so i am also really looking forward to that too. why, even with all the responsibility shit that i need to start taking, do i still want to turn sixteen so bad? it is simply because i want to grow up, be independent, so things my own way! i can't wait to live in an apartment with some friends, have to struggle every month to pay rent (guys... chip in..) and using the money i make MYSELF to buy things that make MYSELF happy. even though the responsibility comes more and must be taken a lot more seriously, i can just imagine all the fun i'll have in the future. however, graduating doesn't seem to be such an easy thing because school isn't exactly a peice of cake with icing now. i guess i'll have to work hard in order to really get what i want. and this is also one of the reasons why maybe i should get off xanga .. like now.
i'm not making any promises, but i might come back and do a little more talking.. pointless, and mainly just to myself, but as i have made it public, the rest of the world can laugh, and point at me all they want; i really don't care. this is MY site so i get to WRITE whatever the hell i want to. and for your information, i am also just talking to myself.
maybe, like i rambled on before, one day, after high school is over, college is finished and i end up having nothing to do, i'll come back and read my privated xanga blogs, and this one. it'll be a laugh, but no matter how stupid i know i am being right now, in the future, this post will bring back a lot of memories and laughs, cries, tears of joy (or.. not) back to me. i know i can't remember everything about my life clearly, so writing this will help. in a way, this is sort of a journal. not really, because well YOU can read it.
" I'm afraid that if you look at a thing long enough, it loses all of its meaning." - Andy Warhol.
Besos.
Adios y Amor.
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| i think it is absolutely essential for me to still keep this xanga. also having a myspace and facebook to deal with. i kind of feel like i'm cheating on xanga. hahaha. well fuck you. - x - click HERE for Facebook! loveelsa :) |
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| for being young ♥ "I think we all - I think all of us - want to feel something that we've forgotten or turned our backs on because maybe we didn't realize how much we were leaving behind. We need to remember what used to be good. If we don't, we won't recognize it even if it hits us between the eyes. " |
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| so i guess this is the new year. |
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